my heart pound faster and faster every second.
everytime when i get to meet him,
i try to take lots and lots of glance of him.
is this love?
i feel so happy when i get to play and talk with him.
even though most of the time we are making fun of each other.
i think that is the special thing he had in him.
that is why i can like him.
he is not like other guys that i knew.
whereby i got to watch out words that came out of my mouth.
although we make fun of each other,there is nothing like a real fight.
i feel that he is someone whom i can relay on and who know
the way i feel.
But...........................................
i was wondering whether i exist in his eyes.
sometime i feel that i exist but sometime is the opposite.
i am such a sensitive girl that doesnt know how to control my jealousy.
everytime when there are girls who go near him,my heart feels weird.
is that jealousy or is that heart ache?
i know i have no rights to be jealous or even be angry
because he is none other than my friend.
a simple friend if that is what he thinks.
everyday i get different kind of attitudes from him.
sometime he can be so good to me
and sometime he can be so mean to me
and treat as though i am not exist.
am i really that bad till he treat me that way?
i feel that everytime when i get to go out with him,
and he cant stop smsging and meet up with girls,
my feeling is undescribeable.
i really hope all these feelings will fade away.
tried so many times to let that feeling fade
but it always come back to me.
today,i cant bearly talk to him anymore at night.
i feel that something is piercing my heart and i dunno what is that.
haix.
i am just gonna study now.
peace..
=)
hope everything that i study later will go into my brain..
phew..
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
10:04 PM
10:04 PM
