duh!!!!!!
moga2 di kasih pgi dhe..
haix..
sedih gua..
padahal dah menanti..
dah gtw ujian uda dekat lage.
gua blon prepare apa2. what should i do?
huikss...
mati lah gua..
apalagi di bidang MATH!!
OMIGOD!
i might as well just die..
huiks...
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
8:19 PM
i luph u..
hehe...
gua rindu banget..
pngn bnget ngm ma dia..
pngn tlp and all..
tp susah banget rasanya..
haix...
puhink loh...
argh!!!
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
10:14 PM
aku rindu ma kelinci yg baru beli td..
td di bwa plg ma kevin..
pass gua mau jemput kelinci kata kevin keegan,
ksh dia bareng kelincinya dl bsk baru gua ambil..
hehe..
i miss the kelinci!!
URGH!!
mwah
mwah..
mau ksh nama apa ya?
any idea?
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
9:50 PM
gua pengen banget ngm ma loe.tp loenya cuekkin gua. mau blg sun hong pun rasanya segan gtw. gua cmn bs blg disini.sun hong yach jelek.mg2 loe bs semua ujiannya buat ke negara yg loe mau pigi.. =)prendz porever.<3 >.<
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
7:59 PM
think of it once again. WHY DO I TREAT ALL OF YOU SO DIFFERENTLY FROM THE REST?!WHY WOULD I WANT TO HURT ALL OF YOUR FEELINGS?!! WHY WOULD I BE TALKING ROUGHLY?!!LET ME TELL ALL OF YOU WHY!BECAUSE,YOU ALL FORCE ME TO DO THIS TO ALL OF YOU BECAUSE YOU ALL NEVER THINK OF MY FEELINGS TOO! ALL OF YOU INSULTED MY PARENTS! I MIGHT BE QUIET BUT INSIDE I AM HURT!ALL OF YOU THOUGHT I AM HARD BUT I AM NOT. I MIGHT BE BIG AND HARD ON THE OUTSIDE BUT ON THE INSIDE.........................................IF YOU ARE NOT MY REAL FRIEND YOU WOULDN'T KNOW THE REAL ME! THAT IS WHAT ALL OF YOU MUST FIND OUT!YOU ALL SUCKS!ONLY THEM THAT REALLY UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL. THEY DO NOT INSULT ANY OF OUR PARENTS! ONLY YOU ALL DID! WHAT A DISGRACE TO HAVE SUCH FRIEND!P.S : YOU CAN SAY THAT IT IS RUDE AND NO MANNERS TO INSULT YOUR PARENTS! THEN THINK AGAIN HOW I FEEL?!!!! YOU SAID YOU JUST FOLLOWED WHAT THE REST SAID,THEN WHEN THEY EAT SHIT AND INSULT YOUR PARENTS,YOU BETTER DO IT. SINCE YOU SAID YOU JUST FOLLOW THEM!F**K!
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
9:38 PM
if i am going to loose you for the second time,i might as well loose you now. seriously is like i get hurt by you over and over again. issit worth it for me to like you that long? haix. what should i do? anybody give me an idea plix..ren was rite or should i say all of you were right. is no use of me putting such high expectation on him. but what to do,love is blind and he had blind me. gosh!!!izzit that worth it? should i just treat him not more than a friend? haix. anyway,i am afraid of loosing him as a friend and yet i am afraid of something else too... damn it lah.!!!
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
9:31 PM
today is my papa birthday.. hehe.. but i did not get the chance to eat with him since i have tuition but i took lots of pic with him before i go for my tuition. anyway,was so pissed with wirianto and gideon they just cant stop making fun of me. wats their problem? is everybody so perfect? haix.. damn it lah.. ms jessica was laughing so much today till her stomach hurts just because all of us did the wrong thing and its a very lame thing. anyway,today in class we got so many free periods and a few of us brought our laptops and there is whereby we start playing CS= counter strike! haha.. cool eh.. my class is always full of weird things going on.seriously i have been not in the gud mood dis few days.. what is wrong with me? what have cause be becoming so irritated at times.___________________________________________________________________________by the way,i found out that i do not want to loose him for the second time anymore. but i want him to really focus on his exam first. although he cant accept me for what i am. i will just let the time flow and decide my fate. i'll just see what will happend next in my life. hopefully something good will happend.missing all the memories... =) love..
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
9:17 PM
why? why my name did not match my personality? why am i so different? why am i always in the fault? why is my attitude that sucks? haiz. is so hard to be someone that is adore by many people. i am not a good role model in class although i am the eldest. but for now all i care is about my studies. i really want to score well,i do not want to dissapoint my parents. they have worked hard just for their children. if i fail,i will be so sad and so are they. they will be the most dissapointed person in the whole world! i regret for not learning the basics of all subjects when i am in singapore and now i got to work even harder. please god,give me the strength for me to face all this. =(_____________________________________________________________________i cant believe that i actually made someone whom i am really close to running out of the class with tears on her cheeks. but for now i cant face that i actually hurt her so much. i cant even say the word sory to her. i am really sorry.. now i know how important are you as a friend. you are the only one who i share some private things with and that always be patient with me. although our friendship end here. hope you will get into a good university in KL and get the dream guy you have always wanted. last but not least,get a better friend there kae? do not be easily bully by the people there. must be strong to face the outside world. i will always remember the day we had before although most of it is full with quarrel. i guess,we will not be talking to each other again until we graduate. =) take care darl. mwah.
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
9:23 PM
today is the best day of my life yet its the exhausting day..hahaha...today early in the morning at 6.30am i reach aida's house to fetch then went to kiki's house then to ny2's house then there were six of us in the car so we all went to CITRA GARDEN for a swim. it was drizzling when we were on our way there and when we reach there. is like i was not in the mood to get into the water so soon. ended aida and nao2 pull me down and into the water. poor me.. anyway,i did not sit the yellow and white slide. i was waiting for them to get down from the slide. it was funny. nao2 came down so fast that he bump his head against the slide,luckily nothing bad happend. as for kiki,he was like flipping away like how people usually flip pancakes.. poor him loh.. he got a shock.. hahaha... since then kiki doesnt want to sit any of the slide anymore except the red one. there was also one funny thing when aida was going down the yellow slide,nao was like sliding so fast behind her,luckily he could like trun the left and go from the left side of the slide and down he goes without hurting aida.. haha.. that was fantastic.. i could not describe exactly how it happend. it was like miracle...after that,we went to eat saksang at some place that we have not been too.. is nice though.. then we went to aida's house. plan to sit for a while ended up we chit chat till like what 4? haha.. after that went to see accesories then back to helny's house then i went to some other place where by i heard a bad news.. not really bad news... its just something about my life.. haix.. that's all i have go through for today..=) thanks guys.. we really have lots of fun today..mwah... =*
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
7:02 PM
been a long time..
its been days since i last wrote in this blog.been very tired recently and easily fell asleep dunno what causes it. haix.anyway,nothing much happend today or should i say that i am not in the mood to write. haix.i am just going to end it here. hope to have mood to write soon.
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
8:51 PM
hmm..been very moody this few days so i did not have the mood to write blog. anyway,nothing much happend today. is just that i feeling frustrated because my hair smells food.. GROSS!!been very tired too.just cant wait for saturday. hope that we are going loh.. hehe..mwahh...if not we would not have the chance again after you all graduate. =(
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
10:06 PM
i cant describe my day with words.especially today!! damn!!
" you leave me SPEECHLESS, when say that you love me."
8:45 PM
